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Died at 7:30 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i finally shall post again.haha.it's finally holidays.it's time for reflection about what has happened so far in this half a year.and i realised that i'm still having my split personalities.but now instead of having two split personalities.im having three.one is who i am in skul.trying to be someone im not.another is when im outside with my friends.and one more is at home.ah.dont know lar.i cant help it.but sometimes it causes me to flare up.sorry to those ppl whom i flare up at.alrighty.i got a new fone.so it's foto time x)
hmm.this is panda with my spects and st pat's tie.HAHAHA.super cute rite?
this is where we slept for our bball camp.yup.shared a room with fangyu.
whee.doesnt the bed look comfortable?heh.but the pillow's really hard :/
this is the bball court which sham PROMISED us we'll train in.in the end we trained in the outdoor court with the super hot sun =.=
the bballers sleeping before training.
the lizard! haha.found outside adinia's and ha's room.covered with blood and red ants.
this is whud it looks like thru the pin hole :D
the hornet in our class.or smth.it's super big.that's all i know.yup.
THE EYE! rachel and i killed it.haha.
what i drew in church.heh.
this is justin! haha.
daddy and me :)
panda in the LT.
haha.i keep disturbing jeff x)
panda pickin up the bowling ball.hohoho.still say he cant bowl.at least he knows how to hold the ball :))
chong ying with her SUPER bowling!
cy and i.
Died at 7:22 PM
Monday, May 22, 2006
hmm.finally exams are SO SO OVER! (:
and then it's my bday.yuppyupp.
mm.let's seee.
i PASSED my MA1102 x) at least i improved from last yr.yay!
budden i failed my MI.ohwells.i kinda expected.cause it's like.i seriously DONT understand what's goin on.even though im like listening to everything she say and stuff,but somehow i cant understand.im not made to be a philosopher(:
oh.we got our math paper on....thur?no wait.fri.yah.thur was the last paper.yup.then i went out with panda.haha.he came over to njc.and huiting saw him.she said his foto look better.haha.i think he has cat's eyes x)haha.anyways.we went to lot one.yuppyupp.and to the library again to read kiddy books (:
then fri gotr bak results blah blah.then i went out with clement.though i had to go home early and help my dad for funtasia.we went to plaza sing,eat n take neo.oh.we went to meet panda for about an hour.and i borrowed 10 from panda.haha.cause i was kinda rly broke le.met panda at city hall mrt and we went walk walk at toys r us too.yup.then clement n i went bak to plaza sing n blah blah b went home.heh.kinda lazy to type.
hmm.then it's sat.clement came over to help my parents move things.blah blah.funtasia.blah blah.then i went home, bathed n go meet panda at.....erhh....lemme think.oh.at bugis.i think.haha.then we walked around and i got panda(: now called dada as the name comes from aini.go ask her why this name.im too lazy to explain.then i went home at around 1130pm thanks to rachel.she dont know come at whud time.haha.oh.we had movie marathon.so called.we watch abit of ice age.then watched mr n mrs smith.n rachel went to slp after tat at arnd 2 plus.and i continued watching billy elliot.n slept around 4 plus.
woke up at 6 plus sneezin.hurhur.then we wanted to watch a morning movie.but i don think i can make it in time so we went to causeway pt instead.shopshop.the metro thing damn funny.ask rachel if u wna know.then i met weilong to get my bday present.oh.rachel's really sweet.when i went to the toilet, she bought a piece of cake with a candle on top(: THANKYOU rachel.i love you.
then i met panda and we went to watch over the hedge at cause way.yup.really nice.haha.i brought dada along too.wheee.then we went to novena sq and walked about for awhile bfre i go to orchard n meet the bballers for bbq.
blahblahblah.we went to adinia's house which is three stories n had a lift in it n a pent house.blahblah.kinda okay laa.haha.anyways.will stop here.yup.
if i only i can tell the future.
i just want to have your heart.
no matter how hare i try to win your heart.
i can never get the full thing.
like whud charmaine said.we stared as really good friens.
i hope that whudever happens,i wna be in ur heart always.
and u, will always be in mine.i love you.
Died at 6:52 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
im sorry...
hmm.rafidah, dont think so much.do blog also.i want u to keep my updated on whud's happening keh? i love you (: hearts.
Died at 7:15 PM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
9 May 2006, the day i noe him...he seems a gentleman....i don't know whether to believe its true or not but talking n smsing make me realise:
1. he hate to busted his gal( if he haf any)
2. he don't go for looks and he's ok with my size
3. he's romantic
4. he's loving
5. he also noes how to make me smile and laugh...(bonus)
SO, should i or should i not be happy? Sometimes it makes me wonder why everytime i lost one, another one will come....But still by the end of the day, i'll be ditch again n i wonder y....hmmmm
OR this is what my life should be, having one after another who loves me but never will last long...
ORhe wants me to improve and proved myself that loving someone is not merely by saying 'i love you' but what we do for ur mate and our care n concern....
*I HOPE THIS IS THE REASON
Still I want to get to konw him more and see how he's like...what do you think????pls give me some help!!!!
freShly From: FIdah....
Died at 8:20 PM
funny how history repeats itself.
first sean.
then zac.
and now him.
irony : all of them are st pats guys.and i hate st pat's guys.
wonder when am i gonna listen to justin and stop falling for st pat's guys.
what justin said is correct.
st pats guys arent worth it.
but i just cant seem to heed his advice.im such a fool.
hmm.but i dont know.it's been way long since i liked someone so much.
i dont want to give up on this relationship you know?
unless you really want to.i dont want to give you pressure.
i love you(:
and i've already taken down all the hurting posts.
as in, i dont want to create anymore trouble.it really sucks.
lookin at the fotos we took together and looking at how we are now.
Died at 2:20 PM
alrite.im finally uploading some pics. hope it does bring bak memories to some of us.i dont wish for us to split.im serious about it.i dont wanna go around hurting other people.but im not gonna do it to the expense of i getting hurt myself AGAIN.im sorry.
hmm.these pictures are not acording to dates or anythin ya?
TingZhi and I at the SCGS choir concert at VCH.
parts of the musical
Rachel and I at SCGS choir concert.
the four of us.im sorry keh? ): but i just cant help it.
this is clement before he had his make over by tingzhi and rachel.
this is after his make over.HMMM.
this is on rachel's birthday outside mph i think.we were competing to see who acted the best.this is a scene in which we just received a cute little puppy(: and i won.
that's me.ong.im so in love with myself.i was so cute can?mmm.im still cute now anyway LOL.
that's charmaine and i before out match against YJC.yupp.we won them.
okeh.first alex doesn't want his photo to be taken :/
next, he poses for this photo.HAHA x)
the whole bball team of 2006 (:
EEE! aini's kissing me.haha.
clement and i after the match with yishun.on the way home.
foursome again.i wish it remained that way.isit possible?
felicia and i.HEY jia you for ur comps.do me proud :D
Rachel and i at sentosa (:
alright.this is how panda looks like.he looks damn eurasian can?dont contradict me <3 ((:
Died at 1:04 PM
sheesh.i just kinda read ur post or smth.and stuff u tagged.
i hurt u again?
well u never tell me?
and i dont know?
and whuds more.i din really talked much to you.
how did i hurt you?
hmm.or maybe it's not me.i dont know.
you gotta tell me.
then i'll know.
that's how things work.
Died at 12:54 PM
mmm.let's seeeeee.ohwells.big panda's exams end today.think he's having too much fun to eevn bother replying me or smth.ahh.wth.
seriously i can never tell when guys are really serious in a relationship or not.i always get mixed up.hmm.mayb the guy was really serious but i always dont bother n just let him go.budden when i really fall for a guy, he always turn out to be not serious.ironic isn't it?
oh wells.whudever.like whud i told denise,i've got my exams to counter now.think for the time being i'll just keep my mind away from guys.n just hope i dont lose big panda.considering that somehow we got colde since ytd or smth.
alrite.will just post about whud hpn on mon.umm.we went for our lasst match against ajc.and i seriously think that the refrees are really damn bias to the sponsering schools or smth.it's like wth? aj ppl were like pulling shirts,hitting people,and even poking fang yu n xinni in the eye.and do the refree call for foul? uh uh.no way.damn ass laa.they think jersey no need money arh.kept pulling like siao.made us lost like mad too.51-3 i think? with ying ying top scorer.scored 1 pont free throw and 2 points shot.hmm.and its seriously damn unfair.once u get the ball,2 of them come pouncing at you and just snatch it away.even if they hit your hand.even if the refree was just RIGHT IN FRONT WATCHING.damn refrees should shoot themselves in the head.i think students make better refrees.they only like foul them once?while foul us dozen of times.giving them loads of free throws laa.sheesh.i think its like so darn unfair.and whuds more.winghan was not playin cause she nearly fainted in the morning and kirana couldnt play cause she had netball tournament also.raas.
anyways.after the match i was suppose to meet papa.budden cause im meeting panda and so i cancelled meeting papa.then he blew up and stuff.saying im giving him false hope in meeting up.sheesh.then now papa and i are hardly talking.hmm.so i went to meet panda and we saw charmaine n hongming.haa.i think i really agree now that hongming is damn blur.mm.we went to bugis to eat kfc.haha.i force panda to eat.but well.he din finish his food anyway and he kept his popcorn chicken in my bag.hur.then we went walking around bugis junction then went to bugis street then bak to bugis junction again and then we went to the national library.
OHOHOH.we saw this really cute panda toy at bugis junction.cant rmb which shop.but it was so damn cute.omg.haa.anyways we went to d national library n just sat there till around 7plus? then we walked bak to d mrt.yeppyepp.HAHA.i win the bet x)
hmm.but even bfre the match,was already sick.mayb it got worse cause i din sleep for the whole sunday night.was up revsing my bio.din even sleep for 5 mins.then at 5.30 i just went to bathe n get ready for skul.pro rite?haa.and i went to match kinda really sick.got worse after eating kfc and goin to aircon places.was kinda shivering in the library laa.cause it's really really cold.brrr.
anyways.after that when i was on the way home, i called my mum n told her i need to go to the docs.cause i was feeling really really sick.ya.so i got 2days mc.n i wonder when im goin to take my napfa.hur.damn sad.i dont want to be sick.cause now my mum wants me to quit bball.she said ever since i joined,i keep getting sick loads of times.kinde true.but i cant help it whud.tsk.no way im gonna quit bball.thats kinda like taking my life away.uh uh.shakes head.
bball = my life
quit bball = no life.
haa.oh.then tuesday clement came over and brought me my ws and i passed him stuff to bring to skul.mmm.he din really COME OVER.i had to walk to d mrt station to get from him.in case his mum finds out again.bleh.was damn long walk laa.and im still so sick.i nearly died.ohwells.
okeh.then it's bak to tuesday nite.mm.ohohoh.baby arnold called me.cause he said he was bored.and shit.i din know my card din have enuff money so no free incoming call then now my card no money.hmm.gotta go buy later when i meet clement.ya.or else i wont be able to receive any msges.yup.baby arnold's simply so ego laa.sayin he's like so hot and shuai4 and that if i see him i'll go so madly in love with him.gawd.that's the most ricidulous thing i've ever heard.hmm.i think i'll upload some pictures onto this blog.anyways.just a few lame things baby told me.
what is d most recent fashion trend among handphone producers these days?
to colour their teeth blue. BLUE TOOTH.
what is the quietest animal?
puppies.HUSH puppies.
wonderin how come i got such a baby.tsk.
Died at 12:05 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
clement and i broke up already.dont ask why.dont ask how.
he's asking me to make a decision by tmr morning.
wth.
just let me go die or smth.
i hate making decisions.
you wanna leave then leave.
stop bothering me.
it's like you have this really deep cut and you just want it to heal.
but someone keeps putting salt water on it or hitting it to make it bleed again.
get what i mean? i think im happy with big panda.
dont force me to slash.
otherwise you helpe me supply someone with two years of free papaya.
Died at 11:07 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
hmm.i'll just post about yesterday. well we lost the match.rather badly.but main players wer down with flu.then sham n coach weren't there.instead it was some guy who i think is sham's coach who came n coach us.he din give enuff subs. shrugs.
oh oh oh.big panda came and fetch me after the match.haa.cause when i was near the mrt station then he said that he was goin to cheers for awhile.so i walked to cheers but nobody there.then i called him while walking bak to the mrt station the he told me he was walking to the mrt station and i told him that i was at cheers trying to find him.then i'm walking bak to the mrt station.budden he said he was walking bak to cheers when im walking to the mrt station.haa.know why we din meet? cause we wer walking at two diff sides of the station.he was walking on the left and i was walking on the right.then cannot see each other.wahahaha.then we FINALLY met and he carried my shoebag :D heh. and i got strawberry hello panda.cause he couldnt find any choc.
hmm.then we took the train down to kembangan.then i saw that he had this tube of somthin in his pocket but he refuse to let me see.grrs.hmm.we walked to some pavillion.raah.HE INVADED MY BAG AND WALLET!! i thought only gal's will search guy's stuff but he started searching my stuff.all the better.i sat at the pavillion and emptied my bag.had lots of rubbish.toothpicks from the fish project.chewing gum ki gave me on vday (jeff nearly ate it.haa.i din tell him it was melted n spoilt).and i dont know what else.heheh.i wanted to do my hw but i gave up halfway.cause i dont have my bio notes.so we went to the playground and play.
jeff's more childish then me i realised.cause there was this thing where you stand on top and turn n turn n turn.clever people will stop after 2 small rounds.but he just kept turning n turning n turning until he got really giddy n jumped off that thing.haa.it was really funny.then we went to play with the swings.and of course he did more dumb stuff.hmm.he stared to swing really high cause i told him that i had a frien who nearly swing 360 degrees but she flew off instead.then dont know why he swing until really high then he jump off.the mum n maid there were staring at him.heh.then he dirtied his pants.but it looks nice.looks like someone drew graffitti on it.hmm.the he went bak to the swing and start turning and coiling.AND I HELPED HIM TURN MORE.heez.then he started spinning and trust me.he got really sick after that that he din want to get off the swing until later.
hmm.his biker friends also came.yup.somehow.jeff told me today that they know my name.shrugs.im hungry.he made me tired and hungry.haa.then we just walked down the dont know what is it called connector to ecp.budden stop and sat down.then this werid guy called me saying his andy's friend and wanted to be friends with me.wth.oh.then i bit jeff's shoulder.cause i was seriously hungry.heh.
after that we walked all the way bak and he carried my bag while i carried my shoebag.haa.JEFFREY refused to send me home.grrs.said by the time he goes bak home will be 8plus and he dont want.but anyway.he's coming to the west after my exams to find me.so ya.and he promised he'll fetch me home next time(:
yawns.clement's mum checked on his card again.wth.he's already 17 goin to 18 leh.why she still wanna control him so tightly?it's like.overprotective? oh.then clement got slapped.and he locked himself in the room for the whole night without eating dinner.and seriously.i dont think it's possible between us anymore.he doesnt even bother to reply or pick up the fone when i kept calling him the whole nite.ass.waste my money.i mean.he made me worried sick the whole nite.idiot laa.i seriously dont know what to say to him already.think i'll just break the necklace apart n throw it away.and burn all his letters or smth.
Died at 4:43 PM